Intoxicated
Intoxicated
4.28.2017
My love and hate relationship with something almost so integral with everyday life.
Let's talk about social media for a bit, shall we? I've been thinking what I should write up for this post for the last couple of days, and you know what sparked up this topic? The fact that I was feeling so unconfident and jealous and insecure. And the reason for it? Social media.
I know that I don't have a big following or even many people who know that I even run a blog, but social media has impacted me in a way that I can't thoroughly comprehend. Since 2013, I've been taking pictures for Instagram using my cheap Android phone. In 2014, I received an email for my first collaboration. My eagerness for producing styles that others could enjoy and take inspiration from started to grow, and I continued to try to up my game by using more professional cameras and software. A whole world of blogging, fashion, and creativity opened up for me, but that's when I started to become unsure. The people that I had followed and admired for so long became the people that I came to be jealous of. How are they so creative? How do they look so good so naturally? Why can't I look like that? But please don't get me wrong; I still and will forever admire and support them because I honestly believe that they absolutely deserve the life they've worked for.
It had become something so toxic for me. I started nitpicking every single part of who I was and dissecting how I could change that part of me to become better. The little things I liked about myself became the some of the worst things about myself because How could I be like that? Is that how I am perceived by others? Am I not creative as I used to be anymore?
The easy fix would be just to delete my apps and focus on other things, but I love blogging. I love creating content with B and sharing it with my peers and the random dots of people around the world. Going out to shoot excites me. Wearing what I truly want to wear without a filter makes me the happiest. Editing photos allows me to experiment and to play with colors and moods. It's a difficult relationship that I have with social media, and I'm sure with many of you. The most important thing to remember, as I keep stressing to myself, is balance. Balancing my life for social media/blogging and taking care of myself is the only way I can keep myself confident and sane.
I've noticed in my last couple of posts that I've been struggling with ending each post with a lesson or an affirmation. Perhaps because I don't have a solution myself to what I've been writing. Of course, I would love your input on these topics and how you would go about them.
PHOTOGRAPHY Brandon Lee Davis
The easy fix would be just to delete my apps and focus on other things, but I love blogging. I love creating content with B and sharing it with my peers and the random dots of people around the world. Going out to shoot excites me. Wearing what I truly want to wear without a filter makes me the happiest. Editing photos allows me to experiment and to play with colors and moods. It's a difficult relationship that I have with social media, and I'm sure with many of you. The most important thing to remember, as I keep stressing to myself, is balance. Balancing my life for social media/blogging and taking care of myself is the only way I can keep myself confident and sane.
I've noticed in my last couple of posts that I've been struggling with ending each post with a lesson or an affirmation. Perhaps because I don't have a solution myself to what I've been writing. Of course, I would love your input on these topics and how you would go about them.
